Writer At War: Kendrick Lamar’s XXL Cover Story

http://www.xxlmag.com/news/2015/01/writer-war-kendrick-lamar-own-words/

A lot of times in interviews, people ask me things like, “How does it feel now? What have you bought your mom and your pops and family?” Nobody ever really asks about what it’s like trying to adapt to fame and money and how much of a depression it can make for you. How much of a depression it could put you in knowing that so many kids hang on to your words. I can’t make a song like “i” without being in that dark place. “i” comes from going overseas, going to New York, being in L.A. and hearing kids saying, “Kendrick, I was gonna kill myself last week. Section.80, good kid, m.A.A.d citysaved my life.” Or “I was gonna kill myself tonight until I came to your show.”

I believe that they are telling the truth. At first I wasn’t so sure, maybe it was just they were excited to meet me. But then they showed me their wrists and had all these different scars from when they tried to take their lives but failed. Or I look into their eyes and their pupils are dilated and they on all these types of meds and drugs, it’s a whole different story to me. That’s when I learned that while I’m making music for myself, drawing from my own experiences and conflictions and battles within myself, this teenager listens to every word I say. And that’s spooky.

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onicurtis
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I'm praying for you Kendrick! Every single one of your albums have made me cry, reflect, and love myself as I am... I can't wait to hear your next album to see if you've pimped the industry/celebrity or let it pimp you...

I have faith in you, but I also realize that you are human. you don't have to prove anything. the people know you're great. continue to unify and connect with us through your music....and keep your faith in God. peace & love. 

onyalove6
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I need advise on how to save my son's life. Justin Love is a 16 year old black male. Who suffers from ADHD. The Broward School System in Florida has not been supportive or helpful. He is labeled as a BAD kid. He has been through +\- 9 different schools. My husband and I last resort and with great hesitation is to send him to a miliatary/ boarding school but we can't afford it. He has been in high school for only a few months and now he is attending a alternative school as of last week and we have started receiving calls already from this new school. If he get kicked out of this school I think they can permanently expel him. If possible can you give me advice on our situation. We have been through Social services , Medical Doctors, Psychiatrist, Counselors, Church, ADHD medications,etc. We have ran out of options. This child has not had any peace in his years of living. Daycare has kicked him out of the classroom and sent him to the front office multiple times. Elementary school has written many referrals and suspensions. Middle school has given him many suspensions and finally kicked out then sent to a alternative middle school. A few days before school ended and he was to enter into high school. I received a call from the principal of middle school. He stated that my child has been promoted to high school and that I can keep him home for the next few days and that there was no need for him to come back. We are not naive to the fact that he has a problem concentrating and is hyperactive. We realize that he have issues with controlling his impulses but he is a good kid with a big heart. He have a friend that had a financial issue with buying football spirit gear and he asked us if we can help him out by buying his gear so that he can play in the next football game. He tells us all the time that he is trying to get better but no one believes in him and he just can't catch a break from the negativity. Please respond to me so that I can implement your helpful suggestions. I don't want him to be the next statistic by dropping out of school and end up dead or in jail. We don't want him to end up at a school for bad or at risk kids. We need him to be in a learning environment with close monitoring. We feel so helpless and hopeless. Thanks in advance.

Your truly.. Medgar and Onya Love 

Ayomide_Ayodele
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Wow, even in writing an article, still feels like you're writing a poem. You inspire me a lot, and i can say that as well for the whole of music-loving Nigerians. Keep it going K-Dot!